A week has passed as if it's been one long, dark night, but I cannot stay with this disappointment forever, so it's time to force myself to make a change, think of other things, get another goal. If I fail to do this & just keep on feeling angry & sorry for myself, I will have very badly let down my wonderful Cool Running family, without whom I would just as surely given up altogether & that certainly was my intention.
That's a positive thought; letting down my CR family would have a more drastic & longlasting effect than the incident itself; I need these people far more than I need success in a run.
But I still feel sick in the stomach & cannot fully grasp that this all happened.
All the more reason to have another goal to think about & work towards; and then enthusiasm will return.
Then I should aim to do the Gold Coast marathon even though I lack any interest in it right now; flights & accommodation have been arranged; apart from having it as a goal, it's money wasted to pull out unless there were more serious reasons for doing so...e.g. injury, illness, etc.
I'll go to the gym tomorrow & Tuesday & do some cross-training on the elliptical trainer & see how my legs feel; if OK, I'll try a short run on Wednesday.
There are no words to describe how completely overwhelmed, overjoyed & profoundly grateful I am to this Cool Running family who have me back on my feet again! I wish I could give each one a hug as well as saying "Thank You"!