Owl said : Talk to us" & I'm going to try, even though I can't stop the tears.
I don't want to lose my family of cool runners or my blogging children!
I have accepted, though heart broken with the result, that I was on a wrong section of the course.
I asked directions & went where I was told to go.
Discussions all week with a race director leave the case with me accepting that I was on the wrong course at some stage, but the director refusing to admit that a marshal could have given a wrong direction. They have to be protected at all costs, I believe now.
This is what leaves me physically sick to the pit of my stomach.
I was taken to task about posting anything at all on the CR message board & told that if I didn't tone it down, they would respond with a post strongly defending the marshals.
If you read my first post, it merely is a response to CRs asking when I would report & asking them to leave this matter in the hands of the directors.
I was shocked that the director said they wouldn't read the message board to see my post because CR are a lot of trouble makers.
I'm embarrassed to be so upset by all this...grieving is what Owl called it & that's
exactly what it is. Put in perspective, which I must do, to what real disaster is : sickness, loss of loved ones, world poverty, war, etc. I feel ashamed to succumb so completely to a disasterous running event.
When I dig myself out of this hole, it will have been all of you who have been responsible for getting me there so I'm going to hold on tightly to your hands & love & if common sense, not emotion, can prevail, I will run, post & blog again.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart.........Norma